September 2006
September 9, 2008
I hadn’t seen her in months
and one day she called and we got dinner.
We went to her house and walked in the dark, the cold dark.
I made it a point to tell her. I needed so badly to tell someone. That I was dead already, that I was a body without life, that I was a body that wanted to not be a body anymore.
She told me she saw this coming and she had always been worried, then why the fuck hadn’t she called or checked on me or acted like she cared
What the hell
What the hell
What the hell
I was screaming in my head but my dead body stayed calm. I am going to the doctor. I am asking for help.
Ok. She would call me.
I drove back home, glued my smile back on.
Hi dad,
oh we just went to dinner and to get ice cream.
It was good to
get to see her again.
